1 00:00:00,010 --> 00:00:02,490 Friends, let's start with some happy news. 2 00:00:02,520 --> 00:00:04,820 Jane and Rafael were finally together. 3 00:00:04,860 --> 00:00:08,050 And even more exciting? Jane had a writing breakthrough. 4 00:00:08,080 --> 00:00:10,790 I want to write about my mom. Our relationship. 5 00:00:10,850 --> 00:00:13,140 Oh, and her father Rogelio had a breakthrough, too. 6 00:00:13,250 --> 00:00:15,660 His American remake of The Passions of Santos 7 00:00:15,690 --> 00:00:16,870 got the green light... 8 00:00:16,900 --> 00:00:18,100 when superstar River Fields 9 00:00:18,130 --> 00:00:19,210 agreed to costar. 10 00:00:19,230 --> 00:00:21,650 And, honestly, I didn't think she'd say yes, 11 00:00:21,760 --> 00:00:23,260 especially after... 12 00:00:24,990 --> 00:00:27,380 I know! Straight out of a telenovela remade 13 00:00:27,410 --> 00:00:29,250 for American audiences, right? 14 00:00:29,270 --> 00:00:30,520 Well, imagine this. 15 00:00:30,540 --> 00:00:33,280 Petra was under investigation for her sister's death, 16 00:00:33,320 --> 00:00:34,630 so she hired a lawyer, 17 00:00:34,650 --> 00:00:36,830 Jane Ramos, aka J.R 18 00:00:36,900 --> 00:00:38,440 And then this happened. 19 00:00:38,520 --> 00:00:41,320 And Petra was super into it. 20 00:00:41,380 --> 00:00:43,390 - Only problem? - It was a onetime thing. 21 00:00:43,420 --> 00:00:45,670 But it seemed like maybe Petra was having a hard time 22 00:00:45,700 --> 00:00:47,670 - letting go. - J.R., wait! 23 00:00:47,850 --> 00:00:49,020 You left your pen. 24 00:00:49,050 --> 00:00:50,130 Yikes. 25 00:00:50,160 --> 00:00:52,700 Oh, and one more thing I can't forget friends, 26 00:00:52,730 --> 00:00:53,900 even though I've tried. 27 00:00:53,920 --> 00:00:55,930 The biopsy came back positive. 28 00:00:57,200 --> 00:00:58,700 I have breast cancer. 29 00:00:58,950 --> 00:01:01,420 Which is where we left off. 30 00:01:03,150 --> 00:01:05,430 When Xiomara Gloriana Villanueva 31 00:01:05,450 --> 00:01:07,020 was four years old... 32 00:01:07,130 --> 00:01:09,500 Mommy, I don't feel good. 33 00:01:09,530 --> 00:01:11,660 Fortunately, Alba always knew 34 00:01:11,690 --> 00:01:13,780 just what Xo needed to feel better. 35 00:01:16,830 --> 00:01:19,090 What is that stuff, even? 36 00:01:27,200 --> 00:01:29,940 And, friends, whether it was a cold 37 00:01:30,600 --> 00:01:32,230 or a skinned knee, 38 00:01:33,410 --> 00:01:36,660 Alba's magical potion always worked. 39 00:01:37,840 --> 00:01:40,210 Until one day, it didn't. 40 00:01:42,760 --> 00:01:44,020 Don't bother. 41 00:01:44,690 --> 00:01:45,950 I'm pregnant. 42 00:01:50,660 --> 00:01:53,420 And, alas, all the Vivaporu in the world 43 00:01:53,440 --> 00:01:55,410 wasn't going to help with this. 44 00:01:55,440 --> 00:01:57,890 You have stage III invasive lobular carcinoma. 45 00:01:57,940 --> 00:01:59,490 At least it appears to be stage III 46 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:01,040 from what we can see in the imaging. 47 00:02:01,280 --> 00:02:03,280 Unfortunately, this strain is rather sneaky 48 00:02:03,310 --> 00:02:05,400 and doesn't present well in scans. 49 00:02:06,030 --> 00:02:08,130 Is there any involvement in her lymph nodes? 50 00:02:08,150 --> 00:02:09,390 As far as we can tell, no. 51 00:02:09,500 --> 00:02:10,780 Which is a good thing. 52 00:02:11,160 --> 00:02:12,210 - So... - So, um, 53 00:02:12,240 --> 00:02:13,720 what are her treatment options? 54 00:02:13,750 --> 00:02:15,990 We'll go straight to surgery and then we'll use chemo 55 00:02:16,010 --> 00:02:17,740 as a systemic treatment later. 56 00:02:17,900 --> 00:02:19,960 As for surgery, you have some choices. 57 00:02:20,000 --> 00:02:21,960 You can have a lumpectomy, a mastectomy, 58 00:02:21,980 --> 00:02:24,320 or you can have a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy... 59 00:02:24,410 --> 00:02:27,360 Both breasts removed... out of an abundance of caution. 60 00:02:27,630 --> 00:02:29,710 All have about the same odds of survival. 61 00:02:29,740 --> 00:02:31,070 Survival? 62 00:02:31,100 --> 00:02:32,750 Who was talking about survival? 63 00:02:32,780 --> 00:02:35,380 - What do you recommend? - It's up to the patient. 64 00:02:35,400 --> 00:02:36,730 Some patients like to preserve 65 00:02:36,750 --> 00:02:38,100 breast tissue, while others choose 66 00:02:38,130 --> 00:02:39,930 a double mastectomy for peace of mind. 67 00:02:39,950 --> 00:02:42,500 Though I want to stress, your other breast is perfectly healthy. 68 00:02:42,520 --> 00:02:43,440 It's your choice. 69 00:02:43,460 --> 00:02:45,950 But I'd like to get the cancer out as soon as possible. 70 00:02:47,420 --> 00:02:48,940 Yes. O-Okay. 71 00:02:48,970 --> 00:02:50,290 Let me think about it. 72 00:03:03,670 --> 00:03:06,760 Sync and correction by LittleDuck and vivelalto www.addic7ed.com 73 00:03:12,700 --> 00:03:14,050 You okay? 74 00:03:14,860 --> 00:03:15,940 Yeah. 75 00:03:21,460 --> 00:03:22,690 That was your agent. 76 00:03:22,710 --> 00:03:23,860 I'll call him back. 77 00:03:23,890 --> 00:03:25,270 You're in preproduction. 78 00:03:25,290 --> 00:03:27,360 - I'm pushing the pilot. - No, you're not. 79 00:03:27,890 --> 00:03:29,290 Life has to go on. 80 00:03:29,680 --> 00:03:31,170 I mean it. It has to. 81 00:03:32,740 --> 00:03:33,670 Of course. 82 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:37,260 We all handle crisis differently. 83 00:03:37,970 --> 00:03:39,430 I have nothing quippy to add. 84 00:03:39,460 --> 00:03:40,750 It's just a fact. 85 00:03:41,630 --> 00:03:43,040 Jane, of course, has her... 86 00:03:43,060 --> 00:03:44,900 Research. That's what I'm focused on. 87 00:03:44,920 --> 00:03:46,450 Research and organization. 88 00:03:46,650 --> 00:03:48,129 My mom's so overwhelmed. I just want 89 00:03:48,130 --> 00:03:50,560 to make things as clear and easy as possible. 90 00:03:50,590 --> 00:03:53,160 Right. Well, let me know if you need anything. 91 00:03:53,190 --> 00:03:54,280 Oh, would you mind telling Petra? 92 00:03:54,320 --> 00:03:56,060 She knew that we were waiting for the results. 93 00:03:56,100 --> 00:03:57,000 Sure. 94 00:03:58,360 --> 00:03:59,950 And could you also let her know 95 00:03:59,980 --> 00:04:01,690 that I'm going to need a few days off? 96 00:04:02,040 --> 00:04:03,310 Of course. 97 00:04:07,820 --> 00:04:09,230 Hey, where's Mommy? 98 00:04:09,290 --> 00:04:10,830 In her room. 99 00:04:10,860 --> 00:04:12,750 Jane, I'm calling because... 100 00:04:13,020 --> 00:04:15,160 well, the truth is, 101 00:04:15,270 --> 00:04:16,340 I like you. 102 00:04:17,050 --> 00:04:18,830 More than I want to admit. 103 00:04:19,080 --> 00:04:21,250 So, let's go on a date. 104 00:04:22,010 --> 00:04:23,780 I know this is terrible timing, 105 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:25,850 given everything that's going on with your mother 106 00:04:25,870 --> 00:04:27,120 and, well, everything else. 107 00:04:27,140 --> 00:04:30,150 But I have to speak my truth because, well, 108 00:04:30,180 --> 00:04:32,900 Oprah says it's the most powerful tool we have. 109 00:04:33,820 --> 00:04:35,440 Oprah. What am I doing? 110 00:04:36,670 --> 00:04:38,680 Jane, I have unexpected 111 00:04:38,700 --> 00:04:40,270 and strong romantic feelings for you. 112 00:04:42,820 --> 00:04:44,750 You know what, just text. 113 00:04:49,600 --> 00:04:50,860 That's all? 114 00:04:50,980 --> 00:04:53,780 Come on, Petra, you can do better than that. 115 00:04:54,670 --> 00:04:55,690 Oof. 116 00:04:56,070 --> 00:04:58,140 Hey. When'd you get here? 117 00:04:58,240 --> 00:04:59,290 Just now. 118 00:04:59,310 --> 00:05:00,640 Oh. What's up? 119 00:05:02,190 --> 00:05:04,640 I came here to talk to you about Jane, 120 00:05:04,980 --> 00:05:06,850 who, as you know, I'm dating, 121 00:05:06,990 --> 00:05:08,130 romantically. 122 00:05:08,150 --> 00:05:09,430 Yes, I know. 123 00:05:10,510 --> 00:05:11,660 What is it? 124 00:05:11,830 --> 00:05:13,770 Xo's test came back. 125 00:05:14,620 --> 00:05:15,840 She has cancer. 126 00:05:16,020 --> 00:05:17,050 Stage III. 127 00:05:17,210 --> 00:05:19,350 Oh, my God, no. 128 00:05:20,260 --> 00:05:21,540 Poor Xo. 129 00:05:22,630 --> 00:05:23,790 And Jane. 130 00:05:25,670 --> 00:05:26,740 What? 131 00:05:27,370 --> 00:05:29,320 You know, I many not show it, 132 00:05:29,350 --> 00:05:30,780 but I care about Jane 133 00:05:30,810 --> 00:05:31,830 very deeply. 134 00:05:32,310 --> 00:05:33,550 What does she need? 135 00:05:34,340 --> 00:05:36,930 Just fewer waitressing shifts. 136 00:05:37,480 --> 00:05:39,920 And space. Plenty of space. 137 00:05:42,450 --> 00:05:43,330 Hey. 138 00:05:43,360 --> 00:05:44,840 You're early for dinner. 139 00:05:45,530 --> 00:05:47,120 I wanted to talk to you first. 140 00:05:47,140 --> 00:05:48,060 Mm. 141 00:05:49,400 --> 00:05:51,540 I know, after the doctor's office, 142 00:05:51,570 --> 00:05:53,240 you probably came straight home 143 00:05:53,270 --> 00:05:54,820 and started researching, 144 00:05:54,850 --> 00:05:57,230 making color-coded lists 145 00:05:57,670 --> 00:05:58,770 and spreadsheets... 146 00:05:58,800 --> 00:06:00,079 I mean, for a writer, 147 00:06:00,080 --> 00:06:01,649 she really is a whiz at Excel. 148 00:06:01,650 --> 00:06:03,550 I mean, very simple spreadsheets. 149 00:06:03,860 --> 00:06:05,400 Just don't 150 00:06:05,710 --> 00:06:08,480 bombard your mom with that stuff at dinner. 151 00:06:09,300 --> 00:06:11,650 You can't overwhelm her right now 152 00:06:11,680 --> 00:06:13,670 with facts and binders. 153 00:06:13,690 --> 00:06:15,400 Like I was gonna bring a binder to dinner. 154 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:19,220 Okay, I won't bring the binder, 155 00:06:19,250 --> 00:06:20,770 but she has to make a decision. 156 00:06:21,250 --> 00:06:22,610 And she will. 157 00:06:22,750 --> 00:06:23,870 But she needs time. 158 00:06:23,900 --> 00:06:26,930 Well, that's the one thing what she doesn't have, Dad. 159 00:06:27,220 --> 00:06:29,590 If she waits, the cancer can spread to her lymph nodes, 160 00:06:29,620 --> 00:06:31,600 and then we'll have much more to worry about. 161 00:06:31,620 --> 00:06:33,770 Honestly, I think she should get a double mastectomy. 162 00:06:33,800 --> 00:06:36,150 No breast tissue means it's less likely to come back. 163 00:06:36,180 --> 00:06:37,400 I actually agree. 164 00:06:37,800 --> 00:06:41,150 But we have to let her come to her decision on her own. 165 00:06:41,170 --> 00:06:44,100 Let's just try to have a nice, normal dinner. 166 00:06:44,370 --> 00:06:46,000 Ah, here we are... 167 00:06:46,030 --> 00:06:47,590 A nice, normal dinner. 168 00:06:47,620 --> 00:06:48,790 Can I have some chicken? 169 00:06:48,810 --> 00:06:50,750 Sure. Thigh, breast... 170 00:06:52,530 --> 00:06:54,180 Wing. Breast-wing. 171 00:06:54,210 --> 00:06:55,460 Come on, Ro, 172 00:06:55,490 --> 00:06:56,960 this is no time to act like a boob. 173 00:06:56,990 --> 00:06:59,420 So, Dad, how is work? 174 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:01,970 Good. Everything's going as planned. 175 00:07:02,240 --> 00:07:03,870 Of course, River's being a diva. 176 00:07:03,900 --> 00:07:06,930 She is so high-maintenance. Literally, 177 00:07:07,170 --> 00:07:09,200 the makeup lady has to stand on a stool 178 00:07:09,220 --> 00:07:11,770 just to glue on her prosthetic brows. 179 00:07:14,310 --> 00:07:16,250 Okay, let's just talk about it. 180 00:07:16,610 --> 00:07:18,010 I don't know what to do. 181 00:07:18,370 --> 00:07:19,470 Where's the binder? 182 00:07:19,500 --> 00:07:20,660 In my room. 183 00:07:21,650 --> 00:07:23,400 Honestly, I think double mastectomy. 184 00:07:23,770 --> 00:07:25,130 The cancer's aggressive. 185 00:07:25,160 --> 00:07:26,890 This way, you won't worry about recurrence. 186 00:07:28,310 --> 00:07:30,760 Really? Preventative surgery? 187 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:32,100 Yes. 188 00:07:32,470 --> 00:07:34,070 Dad agrees with me, too. 189 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:35,360 You do? 190 00:07:36,990 --> 00:07:38,240 But it's your choice. 191 00:07:38,630 --> 00:07:40,240 And I won't pressure you either way. 192 00:07:40,270 --> 00:07:42,240 We can't tiptoe around this. 193 00:07:42,330 --> 00:07:44,870 - We have to talk about these things. - Jane's right. 194 00:07:45,210 --> 00:07:46,520 What do you think? 195 00:07:59,020 --> 00:08:02,340 So, everyone thinks I should have a double mastectomy? 196 00:08:03,700 --> 00:08:05,020 We do. 197 00:08:06,500 --> 00:08:07,800 Okay, then... 198 00:08:08,490 --> 00:08:10,270 I'll schedule the surgery. 199 00:08:13,280 --> 00:08:14,679 I guess I'll take two breasts. 200 00:08:14,680 --> 00:08:16,720 Ugh, why couldn't it have been 201 00:08:16,740 --> 00:08:18,050 pasta night? 202 00:08:21,470 --> 00:08:23,070 There is something to be said 203 00:08:23,090 --> 00:08:24,200 for making a decision. 204 00:08:24,800 --> 00:08:26,220 Certainly if you're Jane. 205 00:08:26,460 --> 00:08:27,430 I'm Dr. Park. 206 00:08:27,630 --> 00:08:28,740 Xiomara. 207 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:30,340 This is my husband, Rogelio, 208 00:08:30,370 --> 00:08:31,500 and my daughter, Jane. 209 00:08:31,600 --> 00:08:32,770 Nice to meet you. 210 00:08:32,800 --> 00:08:35,230 Always good to have a big support system. 211 00:08:35,260 --> 00:08:36,950 So, can you walk us through the process? 212 00:08:36,970 --> 00:08:37,970 Of course, yes. 213 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:40,130 Um, during the initial surgery, 214 00:08:40,150 --> 00:08:42,600 we'll put in expanders, to make room for the implants. 215 00:08:42,630 --> 00:08:45,060 You'll need to decide on silicone or saline. 216 00:08:45,350 --> 00:08:47,130 And, of course, shape and size. 217 00:08:47,160 --> 00:08:49,370 We have round, teardrop, 218 00:08:49,390 --> 00:08:51,160 medium, massive. 219 00:08:51,180 --> 00:08:53,520 Oh, I just want this to be over. 220 00:08:53,590 --> 00:08:55,010 I understand. 221 00:08:55,180 --> 00:08:58,840 But reconstruction is an involved process. 222 00:08:59,140 --> 00:09:01,420 I'll need to see you regularly for a few months 223 00:09:01,440 --> 00:09:03,320 while we stretch the expanders 224 00:09:03,340 --> 00:09:04,980 and ensure you're healing properly. 225 00:09:05,420 --> 00:09:07,450 And to make sure we're managing your pain. 226 00:09:09,430 --> 00:09:10,820 How will they feel? 227 00:09:10,850 --> 00:09:12,600 They'll look and feel pretty much the same. 228 00:09:12,620 --> 00:09:13,970 But keep in mind, there will be 229 00:09:14,000 --> 00:09:16,330 some loss of sensation, especially if we have to 230 00:09:16,360 --> 00:09:17,730 reconstruct the nipples. 231 00:09:19,510 --> 00:09:21,750 Would you guys like a-a minute to talk? 232 00:09:22,910 --> 00:09:24,000 Yes, please. 233 00:09:24,030 --> 00:09:25,140 Of course. 234 00:09:28,410 --> 00:09:31,360 Sorry, it's just a lot to take in. 235 00:09:31,380 --> 00:09:32,880 I know. Listen, 236 00:09:32,930 --> 00:09:34,650 after the exam, you'll just tell him 237 00:09:34,680 --> 00:09:36,510 you want to match what you have. That's it. 238 00:09:36,760 --> 00:09:38,220 Okay, yeah. 239 00:09:38,850 --> 00:09:41,350 Yeah. And then off to a spa. 240 00:09:41,910 --> 00:09:43,060 I'm serious. 241 00:09:43,090 --> 00:09:45,330 You need a spa day to relax before the surgery. 242 00:09:45,360 --> 00:09:47,210 Yes, good. No, I like that idea. 243 00:09:47,240 --> 00:09:48,500 Will you come? 244 00:09:49,160 --> 00:09:50,550 Of course. 245 00:09:52,180 --> 00:09:53,410 Great. 246 00:09:53,500 --> 00:09:55,220 It'll be my treat. 247 00:09:55,640 --> 00:09:58,690 Thanks. And would you mind keeping an eye on Mom 248 00:09:58,720 --> 00:10:00,010 while we're gone? 249 00:10:00,040 --> 00:10:01,650 She's going to the medical supply store 250 00:10:01,670 --> 00:10:03,290 to get things for after my surgery. 251 00:10:03,320 --> 00:10:04,920 I think it's gonna be hard on her. 252 00:10:04,950 --> 00:10:07,880 Say no more. You two will have a relaxing spa day, 253 00:10:08,040 --> 00:10:11,080 and I will go with your mother to the medical supply store. 254 00:10:11,250 --> 00:10:13,660 Talk about drawing the short straw. 255 00:10:13,690 --> 00:10:15,370 Great. Okay. 256 00:10:15,780 --> 00:10:17,800 I think a spa day will be nice. 257 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:19,750 Why are you doing a spa day? 258 00:10:20,750 --> 00:10:23,600 Because, Mateo, Abuela is sick. 259 00:10:23,810 --> 00:10:26,210 Oh, I hate this part so much. 260 00:10:26,340 --> 00:10:27,610 Sick how? 261 00:10:28,990 --> 00:10:31,000 She has something called cancer. 262 00:10:31,290 --> 00:10:34,390 My friend Andrew's grandpa had cancer, and he died. 263 00:10:34,420 --> 00:10:36,050 Is Abuela gonna die? 264 00:10:36,080 --> 00:10:37,240 No. 265 00:10:39,150 --> 00:10:41,680 She has really good doctors, okay? 266 00:10:42,720 --> 00:10:43,840 Can we pray? 267 00:10:43,910 --> 00:10:47,240 Yes. I would love that. Come on. 268 00:10:58,830 --> 00:11:00,560 How's he doing? 269 00:11:01,060 --> 00:11:02,840 Worried, but okay. 270 00:11:02,870 --> 00:11:04,470 And thanks for telling Petra. 271 00:11:04,500 --> 00:11:05,960 She said she was gonna stop by. 272 00:11:05,980 --> 00:11:07,539 What? Yeah. Any minute. 273 00:11:07,540 --> 00:11:09,470 Oh. Uh... 274 00:11:10,130 --> 00:11:12,860 See, I actually need to talk to you about that. 275 00:11:12,900 --> 00:11:14,080 - Mm-hmm. - Hello? 276 00:11:14,750 --> 00:11:16,530 - Petra, hi. - Jane. 277 00:11:16,790 --> 00:11:18,420 I'm so sorry about your mother. 278 00:11:18,450 --> 00:11:20,330 I brought you some Czech comfort food. 279 00:11:20,560 --> 00:11:22,220 It's soup to soothe the nerves. 280 00:11:22,250 --> 00:11:24,620 Maybe Rafael should have a bowl. 281 00:11:24,930 --> 00:11:26,660 - Mmm. - Mmm. 282 00:11:27,600 --> 00:11:29,160 There's an old Czech saying. 283 00:11:29,190 --> 00:11:31,250 The heavier the borscht, the lighter the burden. 284 00:11:31,280 --> 00:11:32,920 Well, I appreciate that. 285 00:11:33,780 --> 00:11:35,260 Jane, I've been thinking about you 286 00:11:35,290 --> 00:11:37,250 nonstop since I heard the news. 287 00:11:41,840 --> 00:11:43,350 - What? - Nothing. 288 00:11:43,690 --> 00:11:45,830 Good. Now, do you want to eat that now, 289 00:11:45,850 --> 00:11:47,019 or should I put it in the fridge? 290 00:11:47,020 --> 00:11:48,360 What do you say? 291 00:11:48,390 --> 00:11:50,270 - Up for some borscht? - Fridge is fine. 292 00:11:53,700 --> 00:11:54,620 Hmm. 293 00:11:56,260 --> 00:11:59,460 Finally! A reply. 294 00:12:02,430 --> 00:12:04,070 That's it? 295 00:12:19,350 --> 00:12:21,380 Ugh, this is torture. 296 00:12:21,410 --> 00:12:23,890 Petra, you got to work on your text game. 297 00:12:23,920 --> 00:12:25,890 Why are you acting so weird? 298 00:12:27,560 --> 00:12:29,290 That's what I wanted to tell you. 299 00:12:29,680 --> 00:12:31,760 I think Petra has... 300 00:12:32,220 --> 00:12:34,190 feelings for you. 301 00:12:34,210 --> 00:12:35,920 - What? - Romantic ones. 302 00:12:35,940 --> 00:12:37,520 I overheard her saying she wanted to ask you out, 303 00:12:37,540 --> 00:12:39,080 even though she knows it's complicated. 304 00:12:39,110 --> 00:12:41,730 She said she had to, to speak her truth. 305 00:12:41,900 --> 00:12:42,930 Really? 306 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:44,660 - Right. Where were we? - Oh... 307 00:12:45,150 --> 00:12:46,960 Soup. We were at soup. 308 00:12:47,580 --> 00:12:49,560 It's the least I can do. Jane. 309 00:12:49,580 --> 00:12:51,350 - Mm. - You're important to me. 310 00:12:51,370 --> 00:12:52,760 I don't say it enough. 311 00:12:52,980 --> 00:12:55,020 If there is anything you need, call me. 312 00:12:56,570 --> 00:12:57,740 What's going on with you two? 313 00:12:57,890 --> 00:12:58,990 Nothing. 314 00:13:00,480 --> 00:13:02,410 Do you have romantic feelings for me? 315 00:13:02,800 --> 00:13:03,850 What?! 316 00:13:04,510 --> 00:13:06,289 Raf said you wanted to ask me out. 317 00:13:06,290 --> 00:13:08,750 - Ew! Why would you say that? - Ew? That is... 318 00:13:08,910 --> 00:13:10,070 I heard you 319 00:13:10,100 --> 00:13:12,000 practicing a call... to Jane. 320 00:13:12,030 --> 00:13:13,040 Not that Jane! 321 00:13:13,070 --> 00:13:14,100 I mean, 322 00:13:14,120 --> 00:13:15,660 it was, like... it's a little harsh. 323 00:13:15,690 --> 00:13:17,890 I was talking about Jane Ramos, 324 00:13:18,120 --> 00:13:19,350 my lawyer. 325 00:13:19,620 --> 00:13:21,730 - Oh. Yeah, that makes sense. - Smoking hot. 326 00:13:21,810 --> 00:13:23,870 That's exactly why I call her “J.R.,” to avoid 327 00:13:24,210 --> 00:13:25,330 this confusion. 328 00:13:25,350 --> 00:13:26,180 Got it. 329 00:13:26,210 --> 00:13:27,990 So, does this mean you're into women now? 330 00:13:28,010 --> 00:13:29,850 Do you get the vibe that she likes you, too? 331 00:13:30,900 --> 00:13:32,070 It's more than a vibe. 332 00:13:32,470 --> 00:13:33,480 We had sex. 333 00:13:33,510 --> 00:13:34,619 - What? - Wow. 334 00:13:34,620 --> 00:13:35,710 - How was it? - Okay, then. 335 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:36,600 Okay, enough! 336 00:13:36,640 --> 00:13:38,960 I'm not talking to you two about this. 337 00:13:39,030 --> 00:13:41,290 I meant what I said. Call me if you need anything. 338 00:13:42,380 --> 00:13:43,560 Non-sexual. 339 00:13:43,590 --> 00:13:44,890 - Got it. - Because I would rather 340 00:13:44,910 --> 00:13:46,570 go to Chuck E. Cheese during flu season than... 341 00:13:46,600 --> 00:13:47,820 Yup, loud and clear. 342 00:13:53,420 --> 00:13:55,200 - That was unexpected. - Right? 343 00:13:55,230 --> 00:13:56,570 But we have to respect her wishes 344 00:13:56,600 --> 00:13:57,860 and mind our own business. 345 00:13:57,880 --> 00:13:59,020 But... 346 00:13:59,050 --> 00:14:01,090 But I have so many questions! 347 00:14:01,110 --> 00:14:03,560 - Hey, you got to give her credit. - Mm. 348 00:14:03,980 --> 00:14:05,900 She took your mind off your mom for a minute. 349 00:14:07,360 --> 00:14:08,380 Mmm. 350 00:14:08,620 --> 00:14:10,740 Which brings us here. 351 00:14:45,950 --> 00:14:47,430 Talk to me, Barry. 352 00:14:48,960 --> 00:14:50,050 Can I help you? 353 00:14:50,080 --> 00:14:51,360 Uh, um, 354 00:14:51,750 --> 00:14:54,820 I need these items, please, for home care. 355 00:14:54,850 --> 00:14:56,400 Bilateral mastectomy, huh? 356 00:14:57,060 --> 00:14:59,690 Yeah, the patient has a long road ahead. 357 00:14:59,720 --> 00:15:02,130 Very painful. All those drains. 358 00:15:02,160 --> 00:15:04,280 She's not a patient. She's my daughter. 359 00:15:04,390 --> 00:15:07,070 I am aware that she will be in pain. That's obvious. 360 00:15:07,090 --> 00:15:08,830 I don't need to hear it from you. 361 00:15:08,850 --> 00:15:10,740 I'm sorry. I-I was just trying to help. 362 00:15:13,520 --> 00:15:14,750 If you're trying to help, 363 00:15:14,990 --> 00:15:17,460 why don't you try and do your job 364 00:15:17,480 --> 00:15:20,240 and keep your useless opinions to yourself?! 365 00:15:28,560 --> 00:15:30,080 Ah, here we are, 366 00:15:30,100 --> 00:15:32,160 trying to get Xo's mind off of boobs. 367 00:15:32,840 --> 00:15:35,410 Well, let's focus on the intake form, shall we? 368 00:15:35,430 --> 00:15:38,530 Allergies? No. Retinol products? No. 369 00:15:38,620 --> 00:15:40,350 Is there a complimentary hand massage 370 00:15:40,390 --> 00:15:41,530 after we fill all this out? 371 00:15:41,550 --> 00:15:43,190 No kidding. 372 00:15:49,590 --> 00:15:50,620 You know what? 373 00:15:50,640 --> 00:15:52,190 Let me take care of this for you. 374 00:15:52,220 --> 00:15:53,570 Okay. Thanks. 375 00:15:53,870 --> 00:15:57,200 I'm sorry, Ma. I mean, this was supposed to get your mind off... 376 00:15:58,280 --> 00:15:59,780 - Off what? My boobs? - Eh. 377 00:15:59,800 --> 00:16:02,710 Then get me the heck out of this locker room. 378 00:16:02,870 --> 00:16:04,570 It's a nonstop boob parade. 379 00:16:05,670 --> 00:16:08,550 I mean, seriously. It's like Mardi Gras in here. 380 00:16:08,580 --> 00:16:11,350 Come on. We're getting massages and then mud baths. 381 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:13,350 Did you pack our shampoo? 382 00:16:13,680 --> 00:16:16,290 We don't like Daddy's. It's too perfumy. 383 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:16,820 Don't worry. 384 00:16:16,840 --> 00:16:19,010 Everything you need is packed, including shampoo. 385 00:16:28,060 --> 00:16:30,540 You know what? I'm going to take you to Daddy's today. 386 00:16:30,930 --> 00:16:32,490 Is today Sunday? 387 00:16:32,700 --> 00:16:33,880 Uh, no. 388 00:16:33,910 --> 00:16:35,010 It's Thursday, buddy. 389 00:16:35,030 --> 00:16:36,670 Can we go to church anyway? 390 00:16:37,330 --> 00:16:38,640 Well, why do you want to go to church? 391 00:16:38,670 --> 00:16:41,490 To pray, so Abuela doesn't die. 392 00:16:45,860 --> 00:16:47,830 Raf, I can't talk now, I'm sorry. 393 00:16:47,860 --> 00:16:49,480 I just don't want Mateo to think 394 00:16:49,510 --> 00:16:50,760 that Xo's life is in his hands. 395 00:16:50,790 --> 00:16:52,319 Tell him that's not how it works. 396 00:16:52,320 --> 00:16:53,470 You know religion isn't exactly 397 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:54,689 - my strong suit. - I have to go. 398 00:16:54,690 --> 00:16:56,050 You'll figure it out. I have faith. 399 00:16:59,300 --> 00:17:00,530 Hey, girls. 400 00:17:00,750 --> 00:17:01,670 Oh. 401 00:17:01,690 --> 00:17:03,200 I figured one of the nannies was bringing them. 402 00:17:03,380 --> 00:17:04,480 I do things, too. 403 00:17:04,500 --> 00:17:05,620 I'm a very hands-on mom. 404 00:17:05,700 --> 00:17:06,980 Girls, get in the tent, please. 405 00:17:07,010 --> 00:17:08,570 Mateo, you, too. 406 00:17:09,410 --> 00:17:11,090 You can take my iPad. 407 00:17:12,750 --> 00:17:14,320 Can we speak in private? 408 00:17:16,490 --> 00:17:19,040 I know I said I didn't want to talk to you about J.R., 409 00:17:19,060 --> 00:17:21,080 but you and Jane are the only ones who know about us, 410 00:17:21,110 --> 00:17:22,280 so I have no choice. 411 00:17:22,310 --> 00:17:24,410 Plus, J.R. is kind of a player, and, 412 00:17:24,430 --> 00:17:26,190 well, you used to be a player, so maybe you could 413 00:17:26,220 --> 00:17:27,720 - offer some insight. - Okay. 414 00:17:27,740 --> 00:17:28,750 See, I sent her this text asking her 415 00:17:28,760 --> 00:17:30,560 if she wanted to meet, and then she wrote back asking if 416 00:17:30,580 --> 00:17:32,289 it was about the case, and now, I don't know what to say back. 417 00:17:32,290 --> 00:17:34,029 - Well... - Because it's not about the case. 418 00:17:34,030 --> 00:17:35,559 It's about my personal feelings. 419 00:17:35,560 --> 00:17:37,359 But if I tell her that, it could easily scare her off. 420 00:17:37,360 --> 00:17:38,880 - I think... - Because the thing about J.R. is, 421 00:17:38,910 --> 00:17:40,030 she's complex. 422 00:17:40,050 --> 00:17:41,430 And a little hard to pin down. 423 00:17:41,460 --> 00:17:43,680 But that's also what's so compelling about her. 424 00:17:43,870 --> 00:17:45,800 And the way she takes care 425 00:17:45,830 --> 00:17:48,970 of her mother, she's so patient and nurturing. 426 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:50,530 But she's also incredibly smart, 427 00:17:50,560 --> 00:17:52,869 and shrewd, as a legal professional, and the sex... 428 00:17:52,870 --> 00:17:54,890 Oh, my God, that's on another level... ugh, you can't imagine 429 00:17:54,920 --> 00:17:56,659 But she just makes me so nervous, and I've never 430 00:17:56,660 --> 00:17:58,470 been nervous around anyone before. 431 00:17:58,490 --> 00:18:00,420 I've always felt so in control. 432 00:18:00,440 --> 00:18:03,210 Like with you, it was just “Sit, beg, roll over,” so easy. 433 00:18:03,240 --> 00:18:05,160 - But I can't do that with J.R. - Petra! 434 00:18:05,190 --> 00:18:06,460 You want the player's advice? 435 00:18:06,570 --> 00:18:07,900 Don't get into your feelings 436 00:18:07,930 --> 00:18:09,290 over text. All right? 437 00:18:09,320 --> 00:18:11,540 Just tell her it's not about the case. 438 00:18:11,570 --> 00:18:13,200 And then, when she shows up, 439 00:18:13,230 --> 00:18:14,240 woo her. 440 00:18:14,260 --> 00:18:15,410 “Woo” her? 441 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:17,140 Come on. What would I do? 442 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:19,840 A nice bottle of wine, 443 00:18:20,010 --> 00:18:21,970 candlelight, flowers... 444 00:19:40,790 --> 00:19:43,200 “Wonderful” might be an overstatement. 445 00:19:43,230 --> 00:19:45,290 He had to call six therapists before he found one 446 00:19:45,320 --> 00:19:47,250 janky enough to do an ambush session. 447 00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:52,660 The good news is, 448 00:19:53,020 --> 00:19:54,730 Alba is definitely in touch 449 00:19:54,760 --> 00:19:56,560 with her feelings about Rogelio. 450 00:19:57,110 --> 00:19:58,480 How are you feeling? 451 00:19:58,530 --> 00:19:59,620 Weird. 452 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:01,920 That was for you to ask yourself. 453 00:20:02,230 --> 00:20:03,290 Silently. 454 00:20:03,380 --> 00:20:05,160 - Oh. - My name is Satchet. 455 00:20:05,180 --> 00:20:06,680 Of course it is. 456 00:20:06,700 --> 00:20:07,970 I'm going to guide you. 457 00:20:08,270 --> 00:20:10,170 So breathe in. 458 00:20:10,890 --> 00:20:12,360 Closing your eyes. 459 00:20:12,450 --> 00:20:14,780 And as you sink into the mud, 460 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:18,150 really feel your stress start to fade away. 461 00:20:18,580 --> 00:20:19,640 Deep breath in. 462 00:20:21,060 --> 00:20:22,140 And... 463 00:20:22,170 --> 00:20:24,790 - Ah... - Ah... 464 00:20:24,820 --> 00:20:27,220 Focus on your inner light, 465 00:20:27,470 --> 00:20:31,230 and allow it to radiate through your entire body. 466 00:20:31,520 --> 00:20:32,730 Beginning in your heart, 467 00:20:33,670 --> 00:20:35,220 and allow it to expand 468 00:20:35,250 --> 00:20:37,040 your chest with every breath, 469 00:20:38,330 --> 00:20:40,560 moving from your arms and your legs, 470 00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:42,720 fully engaging your body. 471 00:20:47,420 --> 00:20:49,170 And out, 472 00:20:49,850 --> 00:20:52,770 as you really take this moment to appreciate 473 00:20:52,790 --> 00:20:53,850 your body. 474 00:20:54,540 --> 00:20:56,390 It's the only one you'll ever get. 475 00:20:57,000 --> 00:20:58,350 Honor it. 476 00:20:58,590 --> 00:21:02,590 Admire the way your body never gives up on you. 477 00:21:02,910 --> 00:21:06,430 Our bodies are our living history. 478 00:21:06,630 --> 00:21:08,140 They carry our memories, 479 00:21:08,170 --> 00:21:11,630 so thank your body for making you who you are. 480 00:21:11,810 --> 00:21:13,030 Hmm. 481 00:21:13,060 --> 00:21:14,940 She's not looking too relaxed. 482 00:21:15,560 --> 00:21:17,430 Yikes. Neither is she. 483 00:22:22,730 --> 00:22:24,120 Mom, what's wrong? 484 00:22:24,150 --> 00:22:25,880 I think I just want a lumpectomy. 485 00:22:25,910 --> 00:22:27,340 - What? - Reminder. 486 00:22:27,360 --> 00:22:29,150 This is a “no chitchat” zone. 487 00:22:29,180 --> 00:22:30,740 You made a decision. 488 00:22:30,760 --> 00:22:31,860 The surgery's scheduled. 489 00:22:31,890 --> 00:22:33,600 Let's focus on our breathing. 490 00:22:33,660 --> 00:22:34,910 In... 491 00:22:34,930 --> 00:22:36,999 - I decided I love my boobs, - And out. 492 00:22:37,000 --> 00:22:39,100 and I don't want to get rid of them unless I have to. 493 00:22:39,110 --> 00:22:40,769 They're just boobs. 494 00:22:40,770 --> 00:22:41,740 Why would you take the risk? 495 00:22:41,740 --> 00:22:42,710 You heard Satchel. 496 00:22:42,711 --> 00:22:44,579 Satchet. And shush. 497 00:22:44,580 --> 00:22:47,450 My body makes me who I am. It has never given up on me, 498 00:22:47,480 --> 00:22:49,240 and I am not giving up on it. 499 00:22:49,290 --> 00:22:50,870 - You're not giving up. - Ladies. 500 00:22:50,900 --> 00:22:52,680 You know what? This conversation is over. 501 00:22:52,700 --> 00:22:54,590 No breast tissue means less risk. 502 00:22:54,730 --> 00:22:56,440 It also means no breasts. 503 00:22:59,130 --> 00:23:00,260 Careful. 504 00:23:00,290 --> 00:23:01,510 You're just tracking mud everywhere. 505 00:23:01,540 --> 00:23:02,650 Get over it! 506 00:23:02,670 --> 00:23:04,540 It's my mud, and it's my body. 507 00:23:05,450 --> 00:23:06,540 Mom! Wait! 508 00:23:08,580 --> 00:23:10,919 Mom, slow down. I'm just surprised 509 00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:12,920 because you decided already, remember? 510 00:23:13,090 --> 00:23:14,290 Like, for peace of mind. 511 00:23:14,330 --> 00:23:16,190 - Your peace of mind. - What? 512 00:23:16,750 --> 00:23:18,670 Seriously, would it kill you to put on a robe? 513 00:23:18,700 --> 00:23:19,960 This isn't a nudist colony. 514 00:23:19,980 --> 00:23:21,790 See? That's what you don't understand. 515 00:23:21,820 --> 00:23:23,760 They don't want to wear robes. 516 00:23:23,890 --> 00:23:25,700 They like being naked 517 00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:27,190 and I do, too. 518 00:23:27,220 --> 00:23:28,880 I like my body. 519 00:23:28,900 --> 00:23:30,560 A-And I like showing it off. 520 00:23:30,580 --> 00:23:32,130 It's part of who I am. 521 00:23:32,150 --> 00:23:35,190 You and I have different relationships to our bodies, Jane, 522 00:23:35,210 --> 00:23:37,550 and I don't know if I want to have elective surgery 523 00:23:37,570 --> 00:23:38,980 for your peace of mind. 524 00:23:40,420 --> 00:23:41,590 I'm sorry. 525 00:23:43,310 --> 00:23:44,430 You're right. 526 00:23:45,190 --> 00:23:47,170 I'm just scared, so... 527 00:23:49,030 --> 00:23:50,470 I know. 528 00:23:51,460 --> 00:23:52,980 - Come here. - Oh, I'm the one 529 00:23:53,010 --> 00:23:54,240 that's supposed to be supporting you right now, 530 00:23:54,260 --> 00:23:55,920 not the other way around. 531 00:23:55,940 --> 00:23:58,000 Hey, I'm still your mom... 532 00:23:59,060 --> 00:24:00,460 no matter what. 533 00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:06,460 And from a mother and daughter... 534 00:24:07,050 --> 00:24:08,950 to a father and son. 535 00:24:09,570 --> 00:24:11,900 Daddy, I just prayed really hard to God 536 00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:14,630 so now Abuela won't have cancer. Right? 537 00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:17,060 Are you gonna drop the “you don't believe in God” bomb 538 00:24:17,100 --> 00:24:18,480 now or later? 539 00:24:18,510 --> 00:24:20,700 You know, that's actually not how it works, buddy. 540 00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:22,090 Just because you prayed 541 00:24:22,700 --> 00:24:24,930 doesn't mean Abuela won't get sick. 542 00:24:24,980 --> 00:24:26,700 So, why do we pray then? 543 00:24:26,720 --> 00:24:28,140 I don't understand. 544 00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:32,830 Your mom always says that praying gives us strength 545 00:24:33,130 --> 00:24:34,460 to get through hard times. 546 00:24:35,420 --> 00:24:37,280 And this is one of those hard times. 547 00:24:38,180 --> 00:24:40,800 So, if praying makes you feel strong 548 00:24:41,210 --> 00:24:42,840 like a lion... 549 00:24:43,460 --> 00:24:44,960 then you should keep doing it. 550 00:24:45,170 --> 00:24:46,620 Will you do it with me? 551 00:25:05,260 --> 00:25:08,160 Hi. I'm River Fields' personal assistant. 552 00:25:08,240 --> 00:25:10,500 I'm dropping this off for Xiomara de la Vega. 553 00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:12,460 I am Xiomara's mother. 554 00:25:12,570 --> 00:25:14,040 Everyone at the office is so sorry 555 00:25:14,060 --> 00:25:15,620 to hear about what's happened. 556 00:25:15,740 --> 00:25:18,460 And, uh, Ms. Fields would've sent this out last week, 557 00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:21,110 but she was still recovering from her eyebrow reconstruction. 558 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:25,340 Wait. Uh, Rogelio told everyone last week? 559 00:25:25,580 --> 00:25:26,380 Yeah, 560 00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:28,340 when he called to say he was pushing production 561 00:25:28,360 --> 00:25:29,540 on the show indefinitely. 562 00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:31,730 And that's when Alba realized 563 00:25:31,770 --> 00:25:34,030 that River Fields wasn't the only one 564 00:25:34,060 --> 00:25:36,700 who'd suffered an unfair browbeating. 565 00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:44,350 I just need or want my mom to understand 566 00:26:44,800 --> 00:26:46,260 that a more aggressive surgery 567 00:26:46,310 --> 00:26:49,150 is scary now, but in the long run, it'll be... 568 00:26:49,220 --> 00:26:50,520 It's not your job 569 00:26:50,680 --> 00:26:52,820 to make Xo understand your point of view. 570 00:26:53,680 --> 00:26:55,250 It's your job to understand hers. 571 00:26:56,010 --> 00:26:57,230 I've been there before... 572 00:26:57,260 --> 00:26:58,910 Had cancer, 573 00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:01,710 so I understand what she's going through. 574 00:27:03,040 --> 00:27:05,050 Whatever you need to do to process this, 575 00:27:05,080 --> 00:27:06,420 do it, 576 00:27:06,480 --> 00:27:10,040 and leave your mom some space for her feelings. 577 00:27:14,660 --> 00:27:16,890 And so, Jane processed, 578 00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:19,020 pouring herself into her newest work, 579 00:27:19,360 --> 00:27:21,510 the mother-daughter piece, you'll recall. 580 00:27:40,590 --> 00:27:43,650 I thought this was just gonna be a quick work meeting. 581 00:27:44,470 --> 00:27:45,390 It's a... 582 00:27:45,470 --> 00:27:46,850 Choice. 583 00:27:47,530 --> 00:27:49,090 Romantic gesture? 584 00:27:51,660 --> 00:27:54,620 Look, honestly, all these bells and whistles creep me out a little. 585 00:27:54,660 --> 00:27:56,110 Well, good news. Me, too. 586 00:27:57,140 --> 00:27:58,380 Then why'd you do it? 587 00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:02,560 Well... because... 588 00:28:04,660 --> 00:28:07,260 well, I just wanted to get you into bed again. 589 00:28:09,430 --> 00:28:10,820 That's what I thought. 590 00:28:11,590 --> 00:28:14,150 Look, we're not right for each other. 591 00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:16,240 We're both too manipulative. 592 00:28:16,600 --> 00:28:17,700 You're not my type. 593 00:28:18,630 --> 00:28:20,420 Now, is there anything about the case 594 00:28:20,460 --> 00:28:22,260 that we need to discuss? 595 00:28:22,840 --> 00:28:23,920 No. 596 00:28:24,690 --> 00:28:25,390 Okay then. 597 00:28:25,460 --> 00:28:27,760 I should go 'cause I have a date. 598 00:28:27,790 --> 00:28:28,640 Ouch. 599 00:28:28,660 --> 00:28:29,790 Great. 600 00:28:31,020 --> 00:28:32,640 Have fun. 601 00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:35,470 I mean, can you believe she said that? 602 00:28:35,500 --> 00:28:36,730 I'm everyone's type. 603 00:28:36,780 --> 00:28:38,230 I'm sorry it didn't go well. 604 00:28:38,250 --> 00:28:39,730 If I'm not her type, then who is? 605 00:28:40,120 --> 00:28:41,820 Not that I care, I'm just curious. 606 00:28:41,860 --> 00:28:43,100 You should probably let it go, huh? 607 00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:45,360 Move! 608 00:28:45,400 --> 00:28:46,880 - Where are you going? - Nowhere. 609 00:28:46,910 --> 00:28:48,210 Wait, you're not following her, are you? 610 00:28:48,230 --> 00:28:50,000 No, of course not. Definitely not. 611 00:28:50,040 --> 00:28:51,800 - I have to go. - Wait, w-where are you going? 612 00:29:08,800 --> 00:29:11,850 Wow, talk about your bells and whistles. 613 00:29:16,240 --> 00:29:19,260 What the hell are you doing here? Are you stalking me? 614 00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:20,730 What?! No. 615 00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:23,150 I was just meeting someone. 616 00:29:23,180 --> 00:29:25,460 Same place you were, evidently. 617 00:29:26,660 --> 00:29:28,100 Okay, fine. I followed you. 618 00:29:28,570 --> 00:29:29,880 Why would you do that? 619 00:29:30,110 --> 00:29:33,300 Well, because, I guess, I just wondered 620 00:29:33,340 --> 00:29:35,150 if I'm not your type, who is your type? 621 00:29:35,180 --> 00:29:37,470 And then next thing I knew, I was driving after you. 622 00:29:38,630 --> 00:29:41,230 Oh, my God! This is so not me. 623 00:29:41,550 --> 00:29:44,920 All of it! I don't obsess about what I'm wearing 624 00:29:44,990 --> 00:29:47,260 or over-analyze text messages 625 00:29:47,290 --> 00:29:49,530 or stalk anyone! 626 00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:51,520 I get stalked. I've been stalked. 627 00:29:51,540 --> 00:29:52,320 Multiple times. 628 00:29:52,350 --> 00:29:54,870 I mean, I have been kidnapped twice. 629 00:29:54,920 --> 00:29:57,990 I'm sorry, are you bragging about being kidnapped? 630 00:29:58,020 --> 00:29:59,010 I don't know what I'm doing. 631 00:29:59,030 --> 00:30:01,910 I have no idea what the hell is going on with me, 632 00:30:01,970 --> 00:30:04,150 except that I like you. 633 00:30:04,430 --> 00:30:05,650 Okay? 634 00:30:05,700 --> 00:30:07,670 And it's not just about the sex, clearly. 635 00:30:07,790 --> 00:30:08,950 And I should go. 636 00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:09,940 Enjoy the rest of your date. 637 00:30:09,960 --> 00:30:11,940 Sorry about this part of it. 638 00:30:18,160 --> 00:30:20,030 Wow. What a wreck. 639 00:30:21,430 --> 00:30:23,430 Hey, bud. Want to go upstairs 640 00:30:23,450 --> 00:30:24,740 and grab your stuff? 641 00:30:27,520 --> 00:30:28,590 Do you have a minute? 642 00:30:28,870 --> 00:30:29,800 Sure. 643 00:30:30,070 --> 00:30:32,360 Um, I just wanted to say I'm so sorry 644 00:30:32,450 --> 00:30:33,700 that you're going through this. 645 00:30:34,370 --> 00:30:35,430 It's not easy. 646 00:30:35,710 --> 00:30:36,750 I remember. 647 00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:40,730 You know, I actually forgot 648 00:30:40,790 --> 00:30:42,170 you've been through cancer, too. 649 00:30:42,540 --> 00:30:43,650 Yeah. 650 00:30:45,350 --> 00:30:47,840 Oh, it is a club you don't want to join. 651 00:30:51,010 --> 00:30:53,220 I don't know about you, but for me, 652 00:30:54,230 --> 00:30:56,340 it didn't even feel real at first. 653 00:30:56,650 --> 00:30:58,580 It was like I knew everything the doctor was saying 654 00:30:58,620 --> 00:31:01,050 and I-I understood the steps to take, 655 00:31:02,330 --> 00:31:05,270 but I was still detached somehow. 656 00:31:06,630 --> 00:31:08,770 It feels like I'm in a movie or something. 657 00:31:10,170 --> 00:31:11,670 That's so stressful, you know? 658 00:31:11,690 --> 00:31:13,580 To have to make life-changing decisions 659 00:31:13,610 --> 00:31:16,120 when I'm barely even able to process my diagnosis. 660 00:31:16,150 --> 00:31:19,410 And luckily, everyone has an opinion on what you should do. 661 00:31:19,650 --> 00:31:20,910 Exactly. 662 00:31:21,710 --> 00:31:23,070 My advice? 663 00:31:23,410 --> 00:31:25,030 You got to clear out the noise. 664 00:31:26,070 --> 00:31:27,890 Make room for your own feelings. 665 00:31:29,180 --> 00:31:31,560 And so, Xo took Raf's advice 666 00:31:31,630 --> 00:31:33,850 and gave herself time to reflect, 667 00:31:35,930 --> 00:31:37,619 while her daughter wrote. 668 00:31:55,050 --> 00:31:55,720 Yeah! 669 00:32:04,130 --> 00:32:05,740 One more button, Mom. 670 00:32:06,010 --> 00:32:07,260 Got it. 671 00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:21,620 You don't have to have a baby. 672 00:32:22,830 --> 00:32:24,050 I just wanted you to know 673 00:32:24,080 --> 00:32:26,210 that you had a choice, because having one 674 00:32:26,230 --> 00:32:27,520 it helps, I think. 675 00:32:31,390 --> 00:32:33,579 That's what makes a good playboy. 676 00:32:33,580 --> 00:32:35,450 You never feel like you're getting played. 677 00:32:36,990 --> 00:32:38,290 Now, if you don't go have sex 678 00:32:38,310 --> 00:32:40,430 with that obscenely hot telenovela star, 679 00:32:40,470 --> 00:32:41,970 your mother will never forgive you. 680 00:32:42,940 --> 00:32:45,260 I'm still your mom... 681 00:32:46,350 --> 00:32:47,760 no matter what. 682 00:32:56,850 --> 00:32:58,500 And suddenly, Xiomara knew 683 00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:01,250 who she needed to talk to right now. 684 00:33:10,980 --> 00:33:12,160 Can we talk? 685 00:33:21,760 --> 00:33:23,540 We can't bother Mommy, she's writing. 686 00:33:24,150 --> 00:33:26,440 Daddy, can we pray again? 687 00:33:26,600 --> 00:33:27,640 Of course. 688 00:33:33,370 --> 00:33:34,450 And maybe it was the fact 689 00:33:34,470 --> 00:33:36,990 that she had put all her feelings down on paper, 690 00:33:37,130 --> 00:33:39,840 or maybe it was seeing Rafael put his own beliefs aside 691 00:33:39,870 --> 00:33:41,220 to help someone he loved... 692 00:33:41,660 --> 00:33:43,300 Or a combination of both... 693 00:33:43,960 --> 00:33:47,910 But in that moment, Jane made a choice. 694 00:33:48,630 --> 00:33:50,630 I know I need to make a choice. 695 00:33:50,970 --> 00:33:54,790 And as I've been considering my decision, 696 00:33:55,690 --> 00:33:57,130 I started thinking about my life, 697 00:33:57,210 --> 00:33:58,990 and I realized some things. 698 00:34:00,590 --> 00:34:03,590 And you're the only one I want to talk about it with. 699 00:34:03,850 --> 00:34:04,920 Really? 700 00:34:05,640 --> 00:34:07,640 You've been leaning on Jane so much. 701 00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:11,020 I know. Because that's what I've always done. 702 00:34:11,480 --> 00:34:14,080 But that's part of what I realized. 703 00:34:14,990 --> 00:34:16,530 Things are different now. 704 00:34:16,990 --> 00:34:18,230 I'm different. 705 00:34:18,520 --> 00:34:19,780 How do you mean? 706 00:34:20,490 --> 00:34:22,000 Well... 707 00:34:23,410 --> 00:34:25,990 For most of my life, I've been a single mother, 708 00:34:27,260 --> 00:34:29,030 leading with my body. 709 00:34:32,770 --> 00:34:34,540 It's how I attracted men. 710 00:34:35,950 --> 00:34:38,350 It's where most of my confidence came from. 711 00:34:40,220 --> 00:34:42,370 It's how I defined myself. 712 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,180 And it's hard... 713 00:34:49,590 --> 00:34:51,570 to let those pieces of me go. 714 00:34:53,510 --> 00:34:56,510 Because it feels like I'm giving up myself. 715 00:35:02,910 --> 00:35:04,420 But then I realized... 716 00:35:06,770 --> 00:35:08,770 none of what defined me before 717 00:35:08,780 --> 00:35:10,120 defines me now. 718 00:35:11,970 --> 00:35:14,070 I'm a wife. 719 00:35:15,270 --> 00:35:16,520 Your wife. 720 00:35:18,750 --> 00:35:19,960 You are... 721 00:35:21,710 --> 00:35:23,310 my wife. 722 00:35:26,780 --> 00:35:29,490 And if I go through with the double mastectomy, 723 00:35:31,020 --> 00:35:33,060 my sex appeal may change. 724 00:35:35,100 --> 00:35:37,910 And that's why I wanted to come to this decision with you, 725 00:35:37,930 --> 00:35:41,510 because even though it's my body, 726 00:35:42,140 --> 00:35:43,510 it's our life. 727 00:36:07,060 --> 00:36:08,830 I would love to. 728 00:36:15,890 --> 00:36:18,650 Which brings us here, now. 729 00:36:18,690 --> 00:36:19,940 Can I talk to you? 730 00:36:21,190 --> 00:36:22,820 I just need you to know 731 00:36:23,570 --> 00:36:25,060 I'm sorry for pushing. 732 00:36:25,500 --> 00:36:27,250 Of course it's your choice. 733 00:36:27,370 --> 00:36:29,350 My feelings totally set aside. 734 00:36:29,390 --> 00:36:32,280 Whatever you decide, I am in favor of. 735 00:36:32,740 --> 00:36:33,860 Thanks, hon. 736 00:36:36,390 --> 00:36:37,300 Oh. 737 00:36:37,330 --> 00:36:38,530 And I get it. 738 00:36:38,630 --> 00:36:40,850 I mean, we've functioned like a unit for so long, 739 00:36:40,870 --> 00:36:42,410 I turn to you first. 740 00:36:43,080 --> 00:36:45,450 But I have to look to my husband. 741 00:36:45,690 --> 00:36:47,730 Ma, are you breaking up with me? 742 00:36:47,770 --> 00:36:50,510 No. I'm just saying 743 00:36:51,580 --> 00:36:53,430 there are “you and me” things, 744 00:36:53,630 --> 00:36:55,160 and there are “him and me” things. 745 00:36:55,920 --> 00:36:56,990 And... 746 00:36:59,290 --> 00:37:01,740 Rogelio and I have come to a decision. 747 00:37:04,650 --> 00:37:06,410 And I've actually decided 748 00:37:06,500 --> 00:37:08,190 to have a single mastectomy. 749 00:37:11,010 --> 00:37:12,090 Absolutely. 750 00:37:12,200 --> 00:37:13,490 Thanks. 751 00:37:13,930 --> 00:37:16,620 So, it's time to say good-bye to my boob. 752 00:37:16,870 --> 00:37:20,590 But not without a proper send-off, a good-bye party. 753 00:37:20,610 --> 00:37:23,800 I love that. A bon boob-age party. 754 00:37:23,880 --> 00:37:25,800 - We can make a boob cake. - With... 755 00:37:26,270 --> 00:37:27,400 my husband. 756 00:37:29,630 --> 00:37:30,990 Right. 757 00:37:31,030 --> 00:37:32,880 Of course, that is a “you guys” thing. 758 00:37:32,950 --> 00:37:35,150 Uh, I'll just say good-bye to your boob now. 759 00:37:35,190 --> 00:37:36,830 Bye-bye, boobie. 760 00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:39,400 Good-bye, Leftie. 761 00:37:39,780 --> 00:37:41,910 Tata and I will miss you. 762 00:37:42,870 --> 00:37:44,290 And though I'm sad to lose you, 763 00:37:44,310 --> 00:37:46,830 I'm grateful for these years that you have adorned the chest 764 00:37:46,860 --> 00:37:49,730 of the most magnificent woman in the world. 765 00:37:50,460 --> 00:37:53,610 And tonight... I honor you. 766 00:37:55,930 --> 00:37:58,330 I never knew you had nicknames for my boobs. 767 00:37:58,470 --> 00:38:00,740 Oh, I have many, many nicknames because I have thought 768 00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:02,710 about your breasts for many, many hours. 769 00:38:03,930 --> 00:38:06,000 And I will miss you, 770 00:38:06,390 --> 00:38:08,370 and I love you. 771 00:38:10,550 --> 00:38:12,170 But I love Xiomara more. 772 00:38:18,190 --> 00:38:19,650 What a relief to know that 773 00:38:19,670 --> 00:38:21,540 even when times are hard, 774 00:38:21,690 --> 00:38:23,950 romance is alive and well. 775 00:38:24,670 --> 00:38:26,420 Unless you're Petra. 776 00:38:26,920 --> 00:38:28,820 Are those yoga pants? 777 00:38:31,180 --> 00:38:34,550 Wow, she's really taking the whole J.R. thing hard. 778 00:38:35,130 --> 00:38:36,590 Okay, that's a new low. 779 00:38:42,490 --> 00:38:43,640 What are you doing here? 780 00:38:43,800 --> 00:38:45,840 I was impressed back at the restaurant. 781 00:38:48,510 --> 00:38:52,210 Now, that is what I call a romantic gesture. 782 00:38:54,590 --> 00:38:55,800 What about your date? 783 00:38:56,620 --> 00:38:59,590 She wouldn't have driven into a carwash for me. 784 00:39:00,250 --> 00:39:01,370 Let alone a car. 785 00:39:02,720 --> 00:39:05,540 So, listen, vulnerable Petra 786 00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:09,760 is way hotter than ice queen Petra. 787 00:39:11,770 --> 00:39:13,070 I don't need games. 788 00:39:14,750 --> 00:39:16,000 Understood. 789 00:39:17,510 --> 00:39:20,850 I really, really like you... 790 00:39:21,430 --> 00:39:22,490 a lot. 791 00:39:24,390 --> 00:39:25,470 Yeah. 792 00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:30,130 I got that. 793 00:39:40,370 --> 00:39:41,450 You taste funny. 794 00:39:43,450 --> 00:39:46,330 I might have been eating pickles in bed. 795 00:39:46,350 --> 00:39:47,890 Um, I'm gonna go brush my teeth. 796 00:39:47,940 --> 00:39:48,920 Wait. 797 00:39:49,260 --> 00:39:50,310 Okay, then, 798 00:39:50,350 --> 00:39:52,740 these two make quite a pair, don't they? 799 00:39:52,850 --> 00:39:54,330 Speaking of which... 800 00:39:56,970 --> 00:39:59,000 It was everything I wanted it to be. 801 00:40:00,230 --> 00:40:03,830 Now it's just facing the reality of surgery tomorrow. 802 00:40:08,300 --> 00:40:09,250 Scared. 803 00:40:16,830 --> 00:40:18,310 Really, Ma? 804 00:40:20,910 --> 00:40:23,490 I don't see how Vicks VapoRub can help us now. 805 00:40:23,530 --> 00:40:25,300 I know. All that time 806 00:40:25,350 --> 00:40:27,080 it was just Vicks VapoRub. 807 00:40:35,900 --> 00:40:38,060 Fine. Go ahead. 808 00:40:39,860 --> 00:40:42,490 But that didn't make it less magical. 809 00:40:45,070 --> 00:40:45,910 Hey. 810 00:40:46,660 --> 00:40:49,410 Can I get in on some of that Vivaporu action, too? 811 00:40:49,560 --> 00:40:51,510 Is this a “we” thing? 812 00:40:52,580 --> 00:40:53,800 Come. 813 00:41:00,740 --> 00:41:03,450 It really does make things feel better. 814 00:41:05,170 --> 00:41:06,610 But, unfortunately, 815 00:41:06,640 --> 00:41:09,930 it can't stop evil from coming. 816 00:41:11,190 --> 00:41:13,700 You know what, friends? We've been through a lot. 817 00:41:13,730 --> 00:41:15,570 And since we've been talking choices, 818 00:41:15,610 --> 00:41:19,320 I choose to save this and soothe us all instead 819 00:41:19,650 --> 00:41:21,670 with a little Vivaporu. 820 00:41:25,820 --> 00:41:30,080 Synced and corrected by vivelalto and LittleDuck www.addic7ed.com 9999 00:00:0,500 --> 00:00:2,00 www.tvsubtitles.net